..a silver thread.


A new day has begun as warm sun rays are melting the ice under my skin giving me a shivering sensation of joy and peace.. the sweet tunes coming from the stereo alternates to a guitar strong enough to keep me awake without spoiling the peace or interrupting the stream of thoughts coming from my soul..

feeling how the day goes on slowly and new energies flow into my head, new inspiration as a gentle hint to think more positively to my motivations and purposes for the future, far or near..
just got back and wanting to fly again.. still imprisoned in this time and place, trying to draw freedom on the walls of my jail..
painting my soul with all the different colors of the rainbow and trying not to forget all the people who help me escaping every time.. and every time is harder to go back, and everytime is easier to break away.. until walls will be down and no bounds will be left to break..

seeing a friend and not being able to keep you tears inside, feeling so blessed and lucky and happy and fearing your heart can not stand so much love and happiness, standing in the middle of an airport hugged so strong it almost hurts and not wanting to leave that unique and bizarre sensation you whispering call home.

not wanting to miss any single moment of that time, laughing crying talking standing in silence sitting on a pavement smoking eating drinking washing floors with coffee looking at a small sparrow on a street meeting people you've always heard of and you couldn't wait to know ending always sharing beds with someone you really care about and then end up on a train with nothing else than memories and a strange heat in your heart you can't explain with other words than love.

sharing thoughts and laughing on nothing, waking up in the middle of the night at the heat of a fireplace thinking you're so lucky to be there, drinking wine while telling stories with your friends..coming home having nothing to eat and still sharing that little with someone you love..

the fear that got you when someone asks you a question you're not sure you can answer, feeling lucky to have such a good God to trust, knowing you're nothing and everything at the same time, finding a way to be everything, your everything, and not just to yourself..wanting more and more and more and less at the same time, needing less everytime you find a new piece of yourself, the sweet sensation of seeing yourself in someone else's eyes..hoping your eyes are deep enough to contain all the love you get and open enough for the love you give..

and while the sun rises you get up, look out of the window and think that, sometimes, life can't be more beautiful...

.C.


ps. ho scritto questa cosa un po' di tempo fa, ma l'ho ritrovata da poco, per cui l'ho postata qui...

I miss you...<3

natsukashii yume wo mita
ano koro ha yorisou you ni
afureru kodoku wo minna de wakachiatte
taisetsu na mono ga nanika to
kizuita toki ni ha ososugite
sugisatta omoide ha itsumo mabushisugite
moshi mo kimi ga nakitai kurai kizutsuitara
sonna toki ni ha namida ga kareru made
utatte ageru

kimi ga oikaketa yume nara
kizutsuku koto ni osorenai de
furueru yoru ni ha kimi wo dakishimete ageyou
dakara
kanashisou na kao ha yamete
kimi no egao wo miseteokure
dare yori suteki na boku no taisetsu na sono egao wo

ima demo oboeteru yo
eien ha koko ni ha nai to
kieteku mono wo kanashii me de mitsumetsuzuketeta
bure-ki mo nai kuruma ni noru yatsu ha inai
sou tsubuyaite
utsumuite tsuyogaru kimi wo tada hikiyose
tsuyoku dakishimeta

kimi ga kanaetai yume nara
utsumuite naitari shinai de
nemurenu yoru ni ha yume ga mireru made
soba ni ite ageru
sonna ni hazukashigaranai de
kimi no egao wo miseteokure
dare yori suteki na boku no taisetsu na sono egao wo

kazoekirenai yumewo katariatta ano koro ni ha
mou, modoru koto ha nai keredo

kimi ga oikaketa yume nara
kizutsuku koto ni osorenai de
furueru yoru ni ha kimi wo dakishimete ageyou
dakara
kanashisou na kao ha yamete
kimi no egao wo miseteokure
dare yori suteki na boku no taisetsu na sono egao wo

kimi ga kanaetai yume nara
utsumuite naitari shinai de
nemurenu yoru ni ha yume ga mireru made
soba ni ite ageru
sonna ni hazukashigaranai de
kimi no egao wo miseteokure
dare yori suteki na boku no taisetsu na sono egao wo

sono egao wo...

sembra ieri, ma è passato già un anno da quando mi sono buttata per la prima volta tra le braccia di quella grande, sconclusionata famiglia di nome ECHELON..
ricordo ancora il gelo e la nebbia milanesi quando sono arrivata in stazione, la stazione che da allora ho visto così tante volte e sempre con immenso piacere!!
e che bellezza l'abbraccio di lara e karo, incontrare le echelon tedesche e austriache, entrare all'improvviso in contatto con qualcosa di più grande...incontrare amy, che quasi assiderava di notte e passare la giornata in fila con fra, o in metropolitana per andare a prendere anja poco prima che iniziasse il concerto...
andare avanti a mele e nutella..e vodka naturalmente!!!!!!XD
alzarsi alle 4 del mattino per prendere il numero alle 7 e accartocciarsi per strada a dormire di fronte all'alcatraz...e in tutto questo non sentirsi mai stanca, stupida o inadeguata...
passare la giornata a spruzzarsi di sangue finto per l'ormai storica BLOOD NIGHT...leggere le poesie di ombra, parlare con giovanna, cantare con le echelon siciliane..
fare la conoscenza di lei, la donna della mia vita, GIUGINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, a cui devo alcuni dei momenti più belli e divertenti della mia mia vita e la maggior parte di quelli dell'ultimo anno...

non so quante persone al mondo possano sentirsi felici come lo son stata io quest'anno insieme a voi...e di questo davvero nn so come ringraziarvi..probabilmente non c'è una maniera adeguata...
quindi vi dovrete accontentare...

GRAZIE, VI VOGLIO BENE!

_chase

merry xmas to you,
merry xmas to you,
merry xmas to you aaaaaall...
merry xmaaaaaaaas tooooooooooooo youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!


bene dopo questo intro, dedicato soprattutto a pier che in realtà ADORA il Natale, volevo dire che siccome fino a capodanno non sarò a casa e quindi niente interrete (nuooooo!!!) volevo augurare a tutti quelli che per caso leggeranno queste righe di passare un bellissimo natale, che sia il momento in cui fate qualcosa che davvero volete con chi davvero amate...

per questo mi torna in mente pier e quindi aggiungo niente sconcerie con gian durante la vostra luna di miele natalizia!

ciò detto..buon Natale e fate i bravi!
slurposissimi baci a tutti!!!

<3

A new day has begun as warm sun rays are melting the ice under my skin giving me a shivering sensation of joy and peace.. the sweet tunes coming from the stereo alternates to a guitar strong enough to keep me awake without spoiling the peace or interrupting the stream of thoughts coming from my soul..
feeling how the day goes on slowly and new energies flow into my head, new inspiration as a gentle hint to think more positively to my motivations and purposes for the future, far or near..
just got back and wanting to fly again.. still imprisoned in this time and place, trying to draw freedom on the walls of my jail..
painting my soul with all the different colors of the rainbow and trying not to forget all the people who help me escaping every time.. and every time is harder to go back, and everytime is easier to break away.. until walls will be down and no bounds will be left to break..
seeing a friend and not being able to keep you tears inside, feeling so blessed and lucky and happy and fearing your heart can not stand so much love and happiness, standing in the middle of an airport hugged so strong it almost hurts and not wanting to leave that unique and bizarre sensation you whispering call home.
not wanting to miss any single moment of that time, laughing crying talking standing in silence sitting on a pavement smoking eating drinking washing floors with coffee looking at a small sparrow on a street meeting people you've always heard of and you couldn't wait to know ending always sharing beds with someone you really care about and then end up on a train with nothing else than memories and a strange heat in your heart you can't explain with other words than love.
sharing thoughts and laughing on nothing, waking up in the middle of the night at the heat of a fireplace thinking you're so lucky to be there, drinking wine while telling stories with your friends..coming home having nothing to eat and still sharing that little with someone you love..
the fear that got you when someone asks you a question you're not sure you can answer, feeling lucky to have such a good God to trust, knowing you're nothing and everything at the same time, finding a way to be everything, your everything, and not just to yourself..wanting more and more and more and less at the same time, needing less everytime you find a new piece of yourself, the sweet sensation of seeing yourself in someone else's eyes..hoping your eyes are deep enough to contain all the love you get and open enough for the love you want to give..
and while the sun rises you get up, look out of the window and think that, sometimes, life can't be more beautiful...

<3.C.